i wonder if i know........

hey, kiddies.....
If I know one thing, that's true....It ain't what you say, it's what you do. And you don't say much, yeah, that's true. But I listen when you do. A thousand years go by. But love don't die.....
​that's very true for me. it my book it changes but it don't die. if you truly love someone, it really never goes away. w/ my 2nd ex, i'm not IN love w/ him but i still somewhat care about him. he's slowly changing that but that's a story for another time lol. 
i guess i just don't understand how you can wake up 1 morning & go, "yup, i'm done. see around". i know a guy that came home from work after 28 yrs of marriage, 2 kids & a grandbaby on the way, told his wife that he wanted a divorce cause he was tired of being married to her & being bogged down w/ 2 kids. If that doesn't scream "midlife crisis" i don't know what does. 
then on the plain ole friendship level, how do you just quit talking to someone you spoke to regularly? i used to talk to a g/f every day, now we barely speak. i try but there's always something. i guess what i'm trying to say is...........i get tired of making it work w/ friends. you want me, come to me for awhile. the only people i owe are the 1's who take a step to me to help make it work out.
the reason i'm bringing this up is the fact that in the last 2 wks, my love & loyalty have been questioned. to be frank about it, it pisses me off. the 1's doing the questioning should know me oh so much better than that. 
it's simple, i don't say it unless i mean it (i prob will say it @ the wrong time BUT i mean it). i'm in or out, there's very little grey in my world. & the few things i WILL fight for/over are the facts that i love w/ every cell i have, i'm loyal, i'm tough, i'm strong, i'm a fighter & i'm a survivor. after those we'll talk lol
advice?? watch for snakes in the grass & a Latin phrase that i have loved for the last few yrs is........veni vidi vici........i came, i saw, i conquered 
Always & forever,
​Crazy Chick